Wednesday, July 22, 2015

MEMORIAL HOSPITAL: Lie of omission

Originally posted June 2012: one of the most important pieces I have ever written...way too important to sully with a rant about my own encounters with the pendejos employed by this hospital -- read that on my piece, "H. Heilmannii and Hell at Childrens Hospital Memorial."




 


I wrote this, and it passed my muster, but I sought the opinion of a higher power before running it; in this case, my higher power answered via email: 


"Run it.. You don't accuse anyone directly of anything, just asking hypotheticals."




and so I'm running it.
This is dedicated to the memory of the late, great Doctor Ted Eastburn.


Hi, everybody. I apologize for being lax - my attention and free time have been monopolized of late, and I cannot hardly complain...



However, today is a big day for me, because today is the last day of our Gazette home delivery.  Today, I will circle my job in the employment notices...today, I will fill the tub and soak for an hour or two as I read every article and dampen every page, and yes, I will move slow and leisurely as I enjoy these last, luxurious moments together.


I didn't have to wait long before taking my first bite of delicious Gazette Classic Cheesecake, served up by Daniel Chacon and Andrew Weineke in their story about the Memorial Hospital/Larry McEvoy severance scandal.  Chacon, ever servile, deserves top billing in the piece, marking it with his trademarked half-truths and innuendo like a dog and a tree; but really, I'd higher hopes for Weineke...


No matter.  The "timeline" purported in the article leaves out a GREAT BIG FACT, and I'm about to share that with you, since no one at the Gazette seems to remember it:


1999-2000
The Memorial board, which is appointed by the council, used to include several voting members from City Hall.  But in either 1999 or 2000, the council decided that one of its members would no longer sit on the board.
Former councilman Randy Purvis, who served on the Memorial board as a council representative from 1991 to 1999, said the council wanted to separate politics from the operation of the hospital and make the board more independent.
"For a time, there were two council members on the board," he said.  "If you go back to the 1980's, there was a time when the city manager sat on the board of trustees as an ex-officio member (and) the city finance chief was on the board as a member of the board."


Did good Mr. Purvis forget or just fail to mention the rest of the story?


Chacon interviewed Purvis as he was compiling this compost - was he unable to find other interviewees from the time frame in question, like, oh, say, Mary Lou Makepeace, Judy Noyes, Lionel Rivera...or perhaps better yet, RICHARD SKORMAN?


If Shillcon was any kind of real investigative reporter, he'd have uncovered a heck of a lot more of the actual who, what, when, where, how, and whys; but then, he's not; like Noreen, Chacon has a paying job and I don't, and it hurts like hell and I'm mad about it, but it doesn't change the fact that I've already covered this story...indeed, I lived through it; and why I should let all that hard work just go to waste?  Paid or unpaid, what's done is done. Waste not, want not, I always say...so curl up for the part that Chacon conveniently left out:


DR. TED EASTBURN SAT ON CITY COUNCIL DURING THE TIME-FRAME IN QUESTION; BUT WHEN HE SOUGHT A PLACE AT THE MEMORIAL TRUSTEE TABLE, ACCUSATORY WHISPERS OF CONFLICT OF INTEREST AROSE...AND IN THE ENSUING MAELSTROM, EASTBURN GRACEFULLY WALKED AWAY FROM WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN HIS COMMON-SENSE APPOINTMENT TO THE MEMORIAL HOSPITAL BOARD OF TRUSTEES AS THE CITY'S REPRESENTATIVE.


That's WHEN the change happened, and WHY the change happened.


They wouldn't let Ted sit on the Memorial Hospital Board of Trustees.  If memory serves me correctly, the last two city councilmen to sit on the Memorial Hospital Board of Trustees were Lionel Rivera and Richard Skorman.


And so I just think this is all so interesting...how this has all come about, and how long in the making.


For those of you who don't know, Ted Eastburn was a cardiologist, former city councilman and mayoral candidate; he was married for many years to Kathryn Eastburn, who co-founded the Colorado Springs Independent.  They had children...they divorced.  He remarried, to Deb Mahan; their union produced a son before it, too ended in divorce. He was engaged to be married to Elizabeth Arnold when he reportedly committed suicide August 17, 2010 in his office at Memorial Hospital; it was the anniversary of his marriage to Kathryn; it was also the day their divorce became final, apparently and coincidentally.




So, perhaps the doctor pined after the wordsmith; I know I would steal her magic pen from her hand just so as to write my name with it.  Eastburn writes a lot like Steinbeck...her every word a rope wrapping around me, pulling me in and then stabbing me - in my heart, and making me cry, and when the tears slow, I go back and re-read it again, because it always hurts so good.


I met her once, you know; my first day at the Independent was her last day. Matthew Schniper introduced me to her breezily as we passed through the copy room; I looked at her face and the gold crucifix around her neck, and on the spot became star-struck and tongue-tied.  But her handshake was crushingly light and limp, and suffice it to say, she didn't offer to autograph an Independent for me. After fifteen days, my stint at the Independent was history...but despite the taste of sour grapes in mouth, I omitted Eastburn's name from the aforementioned diatribe; I will always admire Kathryn Eastburn, and the way that she weaves and writes with her words.  Though she knows me not, she's long influenced me; her impact upon me is profound...and so it would take so much to make me think anything of her than admiringly.


When I wrote the Downtown Partnership to complain about the boat made out of black people sitting in front of the Terry Harris Court Building on Vermijo and Tejon, it was Judy Noyes who responded with crisp nonchalance. In the same week, God told me to look at America the Beautiful Park from the sky, and to expect to see something in the shape of an eye.  I looked.  And the eye looked back. So, I researched the HELL out of that park, and learned that Judy Noyes was also the leader of the pack responsible for America the Beautiful Park and the Continuum fountain.  I also discovered that Noyes, who with her husband operated Chinook Book for 45 years, opened the store in 1959 and closed it on the same day in 2004 -- June 15...(dates that, incidentally, both amount numerologically to 666).


When the Noyes closed their store, Kathryn Eastburn wrote a tribute piece entitled "Promise of Spring Fulfilled."  At the time, I thought nothing of it; but as I researched the park six years later, I thought of it a lot; Eastburn describes them as best friends, and it bothered me..and  somehow made me think less of her -- how could and why would anyone write so lovingly about a woman who through her actions and deeds appears to be a serious practitioner of the occult?


When Ted's suicide was reported, I was in shock. Why would a brilliant, handsome, successful doctor shoot himself in his office AT THE HOSPITAL? Richard Skorman lunched with Eastburn within three days of his suicide, but could provide no insight.  The suicide of Ted's adopted son a few years earlier depressed him, it was said; he was prone to mood swings, I was told. I remembered Ted, and couldn't believe he killed himself at the hospital...convinced he would have never upset his patients in such a manner.


I grieved...with Kathryn, for Kathryn, for Ted, for me, for all of us.  For, you see, the rumblings about what to do with Memorial Hospital had just begun, as had the announcements of who intended to run for mayor; what, I wondered, would that great man's opinion have been on Memorial Hospital? Might he have had plans to again run for mayor?  


I could only go back to City Council minutes and old Gazette articles for clues to the answers.  What resulted was a picture of one of the few good men who have become mom's boyfriend post-humously.  Nothing, nothing, nothing negative, nothing dark, nothing mysterious or questionable; just a really, really nice guy who took care of his ill, single mother...who put himself through school by serving in the military; one of the most skilled heart-surgeons in the region - in the state; an elected city councilman who asked questions and voted his heart.  Ted was a liberal - but on local issues, he routinely voted as I would have voted...which must not have rubbed his sneakier councilmates in quite the right way - such as Makepeace, Skorman, Rivera and Noyes.


Like what votes, exactly, you ask?  Well, how about SDS?  Banning-Lewis Ranch? How about the paraplegic baseball field out east? How about America the Beautiful Park right down town?  And when talk about the sculpture cropped up, Ted wisely opined that the Starr Kempf metal sculptures might serve the alleged need.  Kempf, too, shot himself...


I had to wonder, after all they'd endured together, what killed his marriage to Kathryn?  What killed his marriage to Deb Mahan?  I asked Wayne Laugesen at the Gazette if Deb Mahan was any relation to Brian Mahan, the head of Memorial Hospital's cardiology department, but never received an answer...




I told my friend Mitch Christiansen that I, as one who has long and often struggled with suicidal ideation, had a hard time believing that Dr. Eastburn shot himself in his office at Memorial Hospital; why would he have wanted to disturb so many patients, all at once..why not in his car at Queen's Canyon or something?    What purpose did it serve, or what statement was he trying to make?  There were no reports of a note.  Every initial report shows that officers arrived to a call of shots fired. The door to his office was locked, and first responders had to kick in the door...

Well...what if an assassin had laid in wait in Ted's office, shot, shot again, quickly set the stage...and then escaped the room via a ceiling tile, and up and out through the hospital's vent system?  Might Ted Eastburn have heard the earliest of the "let's sell Memorial Hospital" whispers and decided to once again run for yt? and try to put it all to a stop?  Might he have confided such to the wrong person, and ended up assassinated?  For such a thing to occur would have required both a hospital insider and a police insider - could such a thing really happen, or does it only happen on TV?  I don't know...but Mitch told me that if there was any truth whatsoever to my theory, someone might shoot me over it.


There was a time when I couldn't stop thinking of Ted Eastburn.  At one point, I sought out information from someone who would know; I was walking one way, and then suddenly my feet were stepping in another, until I stood on a unknown doorstep ringing a stranger's doorbell. The person, who'll remain anonymous, answered most of my questions:  Ted received some kind of devastating news the week of his suicide; yes, there was a note, in fact there were several (and only through respect and self-control did I withhold myself from asking to read it); Ted supposedly supported the sale of Memorial Hospital (though this must have been a relatively recent reversal for him; he had previously stated that he would have to see entirely new data in order to support such a change); Ted, who gave lectures on gun safety and suicide, purportedly placed the items he cherished outside his office door before locking it and then shooting himself, so as not to smatter them with blood - but did anyone actually see him place those items outside his office door...or perhaps caught on camera?  The box the gun came in was found, but without a receipt...and when I asked if it still sometimes felt unreal, the answer was unequivocally, "Yes."

I left in tears, crushed to hear that it really, really, really did seem to be true; it really did appear as though Eastburn committed suicide.  I left, with far more questions than with which I came. I'm left, with those questions still haunting me to this day

But since that interview, I had a chance to speak with one of the first  responders to the scene, and this person told me another queer thing: the bad news that Dr. Eastburn had received was delivevered to him by the Memorial Hospital powers that be...and they told him there was evidence that his performance had been slipping...so much so, that the decision had been made to stop him from practicing medicine at Memorial...and elsewhere, Before shooting himself, Dr. Eastburn had taken the hard-copies of his patients' files, and fanned them across his desktop...and since hospital policy decrees that anything contaminated with blood is biohazardous, all of said files were incinerated the same day. What do you make of that?

If memory serves me correctly, I remember reading that Kathryn Eastburn once taught a writing class on "locked door mysteries"...where a murder takes place behind a locked door and you have to figure out how it was done, or if it was a suicide.  Another reliable source told me that at the time of the incident, the floor directly above Dr. Eastburn's office was vacant and under some kind of construction. And yeah...my sources are air-tight and rock-solid.




I am stuck at the corner of it was a murder staged to appear as a suicide...or it was a suicide - and at least in part, a gigantic FU to the powers that be at Memorial Hospital.
It all reminds me of this long ago X-File episode...Sanguinarium...where a doctor who's also a satanist arranges the ritual murders of persons who were born on dates that coincide with witch high holy days.  I can't include a link to it, but it is on Netflix; if you get a chance...it's season 4, episode 6...and then afterward, tell me that the doctor in question isn't eerily reminiscent of McEvoy.


I'm just sayin'.  What would Dr. Ted Eastburn have thought of Dr. Larry McEvoy's severance?  We will never know.

























Isn't it interesting, though, that the new Memorial Hospital North is in the shape of a triquetra...a pagan symbol related to the witches sabbath of Beltane, wherein humans are regularly sacrificed..



Note from higher power:  The design of the building is something I know about.  This design is so to withstand high wind - no real edges or corners.  It also allows for air transport to deliver to any of the three specialty units below via the roof where the helipad is centered.  It does indeed resemble the shape you cite, but I think there's a less nefarious explanation.  I hope.

McEvoy's severance is not something we can blame on the present city council; no...there are sinister forces who have been working quietly behind the scenes for years and years...feeding the machine and keeping it running.

The same Anschutz/Tutts who own the Broadmoor, the El Pomar Foundation, and the USOC will now own Memorial Hospital for all intents and purposes; and surprise, surprise, now here comes the talk of shutting down the Drake Power Plant - wonder who'll end up owning Colorado Springs Utilities?

And we all keep swallowing it...hook, line and sinker.

Yes, this post is filled with speculation...but Chacon's omission of Eastburn's part of the Memorial Hospital story is a blatant lie of omission...and certainly cause for speculation.

Without a doubt, Ted Eastburn was a great doctor, and a very kind-hearted and generous man; he certainly held more than one key to the mysterious Memorial Hospital conundrum...and how dare anyone omit his great name?


There is no disrespect intended in this piece, and if I've opened up wounds then I'm sorry but sobeit.  I tried to write this a year ago, couldn't until now, and must say that time has made all the difference between a reckless rant and a meandering muse.  Led Zeppelin is my favorite band of all time, and it was Ted's favorite, too...and we both seemed to like the same writer a lot.  So, a toast to the good doctor, Ted Eastburn...a real man amongst men; gone too soon, but surely not forgotten...at least not as long as I'm still alive.


I'm coming out

Originally posted 1/21/2011




Well, hello everyone and good morning to you all.

I have an announcement to make.

For some time now, I have felt...deep down inside...that I am a spider, trapped inside of a woman's body.

Though my parents have assured me that I always seemed to be a normal baby, and did not at any time indicate any arachnoid behaviors throughout my youth, it doesn't matter to me; I have no doubt that I was born this way.





Yes, I have had sexual encounters with various sundry humans -- and indeed, occasionally still do; I married my husband...and gave birth to our four children, before I realized what truly lies beneath.

I have lived my life as a woman this whole time because of the spider-hatred that runs rampant in our society.  I mean, spiders need love, too...and can you imagine, coming out of the closet and announcing your true self to a bunch of hopeless arachnophobes?




Living in fear from bullies, wouldn't you, too, keep it a secret?

And so, for all this time, I have led a lie.

And I am tired of lying.

I'm coming out.



I apologize to my parents, and to my husband and to my children for any shock and dismay that may come from what I am about to say, but...I've decided to take things to the next level.

It's simply no longer enough to dress as a spider, and make myself up to be a spider...I'm tired of pretending to be something other than what I really am...

So, and as such, I am preparing to undergo surgery to have an additional pair of arms and legs attached to my body;  I have also scheduled spinnaret implantation for my nether regions.


Afterward, some of you may look on me with horror...some of you may see me as a freak -- it just goes to show how narrow-minded, shallow and insipid you are.

Perhaps I'll not be accepted by either humans or spiders...in which case you will ALL be HELLA guilty of SPIDER HATE CRIMES.

Like it or lump it, friends...I'm Here, I'm Weird, Get Used To It.

Everybody pretend with me!


* * * * * * * *

irreverently inspired by this thought:

With all of the pink ribbons and breast cancer awareness out there...and women making the agonizing decision to have double mastectomies because of fear of cancer...

HOW IS IT THAT ANY OF US ARE PRETENDING IT'S NORMAL WHEN A WOMAN CLAIMING TO BE A MAN TRAPPED IN WOMAN'S BODY VOLUNTARILY HAS HER BREASTS REMOVED???

HMMMMMMM?  


OR A MAN SAYS SOMETHING OF A SIMILAR EFFECT, AND HAS HIS PENIS CUT OFF???

THIS IS NORMAL, FOLKS????




WELL, I'M COMING OUT TO CALL THIS WHAT IIS:

BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Call me selfish...but personally, my ability to urinate and have an orgasm are so important to me that there is no way I would risk having some quack doctor tell me, "Oops," especially in light of all the many, many MANY mistakes that the "doctors"at Childrens Hospital Memorial made on my 10-year-old son trying UNSUCCESSFULLY to diagnose and treat his bacterial stomach infection -- it's only because of ME that he's even alive and not stuck with a lifelong colostomy bag...which is exactly what would have happened had the "doctors" been able to convince me that his disorder was behavioral!!!


might want to check, double check, and triple check before you let anyone -- including yourself -- convince you that you are something that you're not!!

My apologies to those gay cheerleaders out there shouting down "reparative therapy"...but if it was me...or my child...or MY loved one...I'D BE SURE TO EXPLORE ALL OPTIONS!!

Becoming Spydra

Happy Birthday to me -- originally published June 2010






I was always terrified of spiders. 


I’d scan the walls and ceilings of any room I entered for them, often finding it necessary to call my father or my husband -- sometimes call them home from work -- so that THEY would come and kill a spider for me.

The house my husband and I first bought had trees everywhere, and our bedroom was in the finished basement.  I encountered them frequently there...and when I went to sleep at night, it was typically with the sheets covering my head in a spider-shield manner -- terrified one might crawl in my mouth as I slept.


Shortly after the three dreams I had in the year 2000, I was sleeping, spider-shielded...and dreamed a dream that served as an affirmation of the miracles that had occurred upon dreaming them.






Behind the now-closed Bennigan's 









sat the even longer closed Traildust Steakhouse.  It was a huge wooden building that resembled a giant barn,











with very long picnic tables where people would eat;










and if a diner made the mistake of wearing a tie into the place, a gang of singing waitstaff would surround you ringing a cowbell, and snip off the tie with a pair of scissors.




Anyway, I walked into the building, and there were ALL KINDS OF PEOPLE there, standing around a long table murmuring, and staring intently at something in the center.

“What’s everybody lookin’ at…?” I wondered, elbowing my way in so that I could see more clearly. 






To my utter amazement, there in the center of the table was the largest spider I'd ever seen.  About the size of a 32" television, it was shiny and wet, laying motionless on its back with its legs all folded in.  I perceived at once it was newly born.

I caught my breath, and thought, "That is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen."

At that moment, the spider began to slowly unfold its long opal legs.  Everyone looking on gasped with horror and took a step back…except for me; fascinated, I leaned in closer.










I then awoke…and from the moment I opened my eyes, I knew I was no longer afraid of spiders.  And I knew it was another God-dream; I knew it was another miracle.






I tell you this story now because I was just looking up the word “watcher” in the Bible, and was surprised to read the following defininition: 

Strongs Concordance defines a watchman as: 6822  tsaphah (tsaw-faw');  a primitive root; properly, to lean forward, i.e. to peer into the distance; by implication, to observe, await: KJV-- behold, espy, look up (well), wait for, (keep the) watch (-man).  

I spend some of my time serving as a Spider Ambassador, pointing out their benefits, teaching others how to practice good spider awareness and spider avoidance, and encouraging children not to fear them.  Here's a link to my absolute favorite childrens' story about spiders:  Sophie's Masterpiece.



Betcha didn't know the Dutch word for "spider" is "spinn."

When I encounter a spider, if lets me see it only once – say, crossing the ceiling from one side to the other, and continuing on its way -- my usual habit is to leave it undisturbed.  If it shows itself to me more than that, or dawdles, or surprises me, I dispatch with it quickly.  

Thrice I've been moved to catch one in a jar and set it free outside:  once, due to its absolute enormity; another, because it was still alive six weeks after some kid had trapped it in an airless jar; and a third, because it was the loveliest shade of lilac, and was just dangling there, delicately.

The other day in my bedroom, I moved a scanner, and was surprised by a weird little black spider with spots on its back; I screamed like a little girl, and killed it quick.

I hate when that happens.

But now, other people actually call me up frantically, begging me to come and kill a spider they’ve encountered; and though it pains me somehow and fills me with a sense of betrayal, I come and I slay the spider – often with my bare hand -- panicky friend shrieking and panting and thanking me, regarding me with awe and wonder.




That's how I became 
Spydra







Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Snack-time with Satan

"Ahh...no thanks...I'm trying to cut back..."


ORIGINALLY POSTED JULY 2010 under the title "Extreme Homeopathy"

A reader hinted that perhaps I'm just one dirty-minded little spider.  "Pikes Peak as the phallus of Osiris??  The Fountain as the vagina of Isis?!?  Come now, Spydra, aren't you taking this all a bit too far?"  

It's horrible to think...but this is stuff that some of the most "powerful" witches and satanists believe; and if this is the type of stuff these people will eat, how can one doubt that they'd have the stomach to lie, cheat, steal and kill?  

As is my habit, I'll not argue using my own words...but rather the words of those about whom I write.  I apologize in advance for any nausea, vomiting, feelings of disconcert and/or depression, nightmares, etc.....

___________________________________

Ordo Templi Orientis
Spermo-Gnosis



Carl Kellner
Theodor Reuss
Aleister Crowley



A lecture by P.R. Koenig

One day the universe broke into pieces - either caused by a female aspect of the Creator or due to an intermediary entity between the Divine and the Profane.

Those who are happy with and in the world, and benefit from good health, and who experience love and satisfaction in their preferred fields, seem not to need the universe-healing Gnosticism, which I believe is a religious tool to deal with unbearable life.
The magician and the Gnostic live in two worlds at the same time. But, while the magician tries to use the world beyond, in order to have power over this world here, the Gnostic seeks a divine reality, a realm within this world here, which is only a sort of shadow world. Both the magician and the Gnostic (as have many other traditions such as Hindu, Buddhist, Taoist and Tantra) feel that sexuality might be the key or the door to other realities; but they differ in method between ascetic and libertinistic/sensual orientations: both still use the sexual force. Gnosticism is a varried set of overlaping traditions that often contradict each other. Not all gnostics were "spermo-gnostics". But of these I will speak now. I will summarize the complex Gnostic traditions (although the subject is far too diverse for anyone to depict it accurately in a short essay) but not their literature, nor compare their cosmology in general, nor their History; (1*) I will also go to modern times, where modern Gnostics probably find both worlds more real than the ancient Gnostics did. (2*)

Salvation

Living in a world which is subjectively felt and experienced as a "rotten place" (a Gnostic term), cries out for salvation. The way this salvation begins is with the material body. It rises up to higher planes (e.g. the emotional plane and the intellectual plane), until man reaches the divine place in the Pleroma. That is fulness to overflowing.
This Pleroma, be it in man or somewhere in outer space, is the Gnostic counterpart to the "rotten" earthly place. Two routes can be pursued to leave this rotten place: to suppress or avoid it (the ascetic concept); or to dissolve it while completely living it out (the sensual way).
On a higher plane it is vice versa. The sensual way leads to homeopathic asceticism: weakening the evil whilst indulging in it like a necessity. The sensual gnostic embraces sin in order to experience the decaying of the world, and to rise as the Phoenix from the ashes. Sexual orgies are sweating out the divine Pneuma/Logos which rises to the Pleroma. The ascetic way reacts allopathically: against the poison of existence it gives ignorance of the body as a remedy. (3*)

The term I have introduced above, the concept of "homeopathy" surprisingly is used as a method often with the ascetic way of Gnostic life. Homeopathy surprisingly has a lot in common with Gnosticism itself. (4*)
Homeopathy and Gnosticism both regard the material plane as the most unimportant to man. Both concepts seek a bringing back of man/humanity in/to a primitive/archaic state of health/salvation. This state manifests itself on the highest spiritual/divine plane. Both, homeopathy and Gnosticism teach that healing and/or salvation happens from Above to Below and from Inside to Outside (which reminds us of Hermes Trismegistos' Emerald Table of the Rosicrucians and the Freemasons). But while Gnosticism offers salvation/health either via "Optimum through Maximum" or "Optimum through Minimum", homeopathy follows the middle path of balance.

The central point with the ascetic and sensual Gnostics lies with their concept of Sperm. It is the sperm that contains the Holy Logos which, when in Man, has to be brought back to the Pleroma. (5*) This implies two questions:
1. can women be saved? and,
2. what shall we do with the sperm?


The Misogynists

Maybe because it was the greediness of the female aspect of the creative Entity that caused the fall into the profane, it is the duty of the Man to give the universe back its completeness/integrity. On the material plane the woman is punished with the large wound between her legs. (6*) This wound signifies the place where primitive man once was bound with his own female aspect: the perfect Androgyn, now torn apart. It is the man's turn now to experience the lust which broke the universe apart. Woman has to suffer. Only man's sperm transports the Holy Logos. Women lack the prostata (7*) and therefore are superfluous for man's salvation as long as he does not achieve androgynity. (8*) If he does have "use" for the female, then it is only as a channel to higher divine entities. Maybe he sees some use for her menstrual blood? When he is Christian orientated (let us call him the libertine Gnostic), he might use her blood as the "Blood of Christ" and consume it as a "religious nourishment". If he sees the world as a really bad place, he avoids having children and animalistic flesh-eating (and here we find vegetarians). An ascetic avoids having ejaculations, even with his wife, but directs his sexual energies in Yoga-practises into his head (where he assumes is found the most direct bridge to the Divine). In order to achieve Androgynity, he penetrates his wife (avoiding orgasm) so that she, as well, might benefit from his luck. (9*)
Yoga is one of the preliminary conditions to master the body before using it as a temple. By westerners, Yoga is mistakenly thought to be a system of physical exercises to keep the body supple and the mind calm. But the meaning of the word yoga is union and the system was developed by eastern adepts to assist them to attain union with the source of all being.
All the Gnostic movements, be they the old ones or modern ones, assign salvation only to man: the woman has to become a man in order to enter heaven. (10*) The ascetic Gnostics avoid ejaculation and let the woman join in his wonderful ability to "produce" the Logos; the libertine Gnostics use all of the woman's gifts in order to sweat out the Pneuma.

Well. Our two questions (1. can women be saved? and, 2. what shall we do with the sperm?) cannot be separated. Only man's sperm can offer salvation (11*) and woman has to become man in order to be saved. (12*)

Which spermo-Gnostics are known today? Since the turn of the present century, the most famous group has organised itself as a quasi freemasonry organisazion, called Ordo Templi Orientis, in short: O.T.O. (13*)

Ordo Templi Orientis

Three famous O.T.O.-protagonists are: the provider of its concept/idea, the Austrian Carl Kellner (1851-1905); its German founder Theodor Reuss (1855-1923) and the notorious Englishman,Aleister Crowley (1875-1947). The reader will find the beliefs and practises of the O.T.O.(-groups) below.
Gnosticism (in its varried forms) is only one tradition that comes into play in Ordo Templi Orientis symbology, and not all aspects of every kind of gnosticism are particularly important. These modern Gnostics (and their sheep) were sperm-eaters. They assigned this to the Holy Logos; and, at least Reuss and Crowley, did not like women. (14*) However, while Reuss' biography (15*) opened his mind dualistically towards both ascetic and libertinistic ways as a means of achieving salvation, Crowley's libertinistic biography (16*) shows an individual whose universe got smaller each day, and whose world was populated with demons and angels, which did not dissolve at the darkest moment in order to give rise to a phoenix.

The Occult Circle, later reformed as O.T.O., under its founder Carl Kellner, ca. 1895

While Madame H.P Blavatsky warned from Yoga-teachings which are unsain and disapproved by the "Masters", Carl Kellner teached Hatha Yoga which included sexual exercices leaned on to the philosophies of Samkhya, Advaita and Franz Hartmann (1838-1912). Kellner was specialised in Yoga-meditations aiming at experiencing earlier incarnations (Patanjali's Yoga Sutra). His wife was the Great Goddess. Kellner himself acted as Babylonian Priest. In his house was a room without windows where the tantric rites took place to prepare the Elixir, that is: male and female sexual fluids. (17*) The pseudo-templar/freemason structure (introduced appr. by Theodor Reuss in 1903 and only after Kellner's death in 1905 used for a framework for a body later called O.T.O.) was not that important to Kellner who worked with his circle without order system. There is no evidentiary documentation that Kellner made use of the term "O.T.O.". His circle was called "The Inner Triangle" and consisted of Kellner, Hartmann, Reuss and some women.
Carl Kellner was a skilled practitioner in several traditional styles of Yoga. He believed that a major role was played by the nerve fibres (Nadis) and the 10 different kinds of breathing (Vayus). The ancient indian bodily expressions for the 10 Vayus are: Prana (in the heart), Apana (near the anus), Samana (near the genitals), Udana (in the throat), Vyana (the whole body), Naga (in the genitals), Kurma (open the eye lids), Krikara (causes sneezing), Devadatta (causes yawning) and Dhananjaya (floats through the physical body).
Reuss' theory of "Sexual Magic" was focussed on the 6th Vayus (see above) or Naga which he published in 1912, seven years after Kellner's death.
Since Theodor Reuss later spoke of the "Hermetic Brotherhood of Light" (HBL) as the central and secret source of the teachings it is easy to assume that Kellner followed its protagonist P.B. Randolphs teachings of using drugs in order to reach illumination while having sexual intercourse. Randolph also gave techniques to focus the sexual energies upon a wish, a sort of an inner photography which represents the desire to be fulfilled. (18*) There is oral history as to Carl Kellner being one of the 12 co-founders of the Hermetic Brotherhood of Light in Boston/Chicago in 1895, and then leading a German "branch" which later was to become above mentioned "Inner Triangle".(19*) There is reason to believe that Reuss' HBL was not the same as Kellner's.

Comparison of the Reuss VII° O.T.O. ritual with the "Asiatischen Brüder vom Rosenkreuz", the "mächtigen und weisen Orden der Ritter und Brüder des Lichts" - one source of inspiration.

The Ordo Templi Orientis Phenomenon


Reuss to Crowley, 1917



The O.T.O. under Theodor Reuss

After Kellner's death in 1905, Reuss founded an O.T.O.-system now consisting of 7 pseudo-freemasonic degrees, opening the 7 Chakras, while the sexmagical VIIIth and IXth degrees were "given" without any rituals. The Xth degree only labelled the country's leader.

The surviving papers of Reuss show that he continued the Yoga-teachings of Kellner but also introduced Manichaeism. (20*) The whole body was considered Divine (the Temple of the Holy Ghost) and the sexual organs were meant to fulfill a peculiar function: a Holy Mass was the symbolic act of re-creating the universe. (21*) The root belief is that only by co-operation between man and woman can either advance spiritually. Sexually joining is a shadow of the cosmic act of creation. Performed by adepts, the union of male and female approaches more closely the primal act and partakes of its divine nature, which is seen as continuous and continuing, not for once and for all. This point of view is different from the Christian one, which holds that the creation of the universe by God occurred at some definite point in time past. The sensations that form slowly within Man and Woman sexually joined come not from the conjunction of the physical parts, but from the male and female sexual polarities in contact. Correct breathing patterns affect the chemistry of the blood stream and so bring about a change in the internal environment of the brain. Consciousness ego moves away to make room for divine power. The sexual energies then should be stored, together with correct breathing both leads to the 
transmutation of the energy in order the Magician becomes a Clairvoyant (in German: "Seher"). (22*)
Reuss was not that fond of masturbating (the VIIIth degree under Crowley) and called it "Selbstpeinigung" (causing pain to oneself) and "widernatuerlich" (against nature). (23*) Nevertheless he saw the Lingam (phallus) as a symbol of the creator of the universe.
It seems that Reuss worked along homosexual (24*) or at least homoerotic tantric lines (mutual touching of the phalli, (25*) the XIth degree under Crowley) but the central secret of his Ordo Templi Orientis was built around Richard Wagner's "Parsifal". The spear became the phallus while the Gral, of course, was the vagina which contained the "Grals-speise" (the nourriture of the Gral, that is, sperm and vaginal fluids). Reuss' O.T.O.-system was formed on an utopian communistic society where the Mother (with references to the christian Maria) took central position in social and sexual life, called "community of Neo-Christians". (26*)

The O.T.O. under Aleister Crowley

After Reuss' death in 1923, Crowley made an entreprise out of the O.T.O.'s secret. There is a surviving plan to promote the "Elixir of Life" (under the name "Amrita", the Magical Medicine) (27*) and to heal patients according to O.T.O. methods, (28*) that is: to heal them with yoga and sexual fluids. (29*) Crowley used the Ordo Templi Orientis (as he used other real or ghostly orders) as a play, a publishing house and found it a suitable instrument to extract the "gold" (be it alchemistical or sexual) from the pockets of his followers. To that purpose he pretended never having had sex out of sheer lust. (30*) It always should have been a "duty", a "prayer to God" (Aiwaz, Baphomet or Sheitan (31*) - there are many more disguises); in consequence a prayer to himself whom he identified with an erected penis.

Crowley's VII* is a treatise about the creative organ's divinity, and from his "Book of Lies" one can interfer that the vital fluid is a vehicle of immortality. The Matter is the original primitive material substance semi-spiritual, immortal and containing in itself the archetypes of all form and possessing the double potency of attracting to itself individual spirits and also particles of gross Matter to form their temporary envelope on this plane (the gnostic Rotten Place).
Crowley's VIIIth degree unveiled to the "pupil" that masturbating on a sigil of a demon or meditating upon the image of a phallus would bring power or communication with a (or one's own) divine being/Super Ego. The IXth degree labelled heterosexual intercourse where the sexual secrets were sucked out of the vagina and when not consumed (when considered holy) put on a sigil to attract this or that demon to fullfill the pertinent wish/order. (32*) In his "Emblems and Mode of Use" (33*) Crowley describes the method of how to smear sperm on a talisman/sigil in order to attract for example money. This paper is so secret that, at one time, its possession was equal with having the IXth degree O.T.O. There was no other proof until only recently: now one possibly needs to go through an examination test to prove "possession"/"knowledge" of the IXth degree O.T.O. (34*)
Crowley played around with different sexmagickal methods. One of the O.T.O.'s secrets is the adoration of the idol Baphomet of the old Templars. While the German splinter-group, the misogynist Fraternitas Saturnidefinitely tried (and still tries) to incarnate Baphomet in flesh, (35*) in the O.T.O.-groups (that emerged after Crowley's death in 1947) the subject is not that clear although incorporated in the Xth degree. Crowley advised selection of a female partner. The magician and his mate "copulate continuously" until impregnation results: a homunculus. (36*) Maybe the ability of the Xth to create a homunculus was realised on the physical level in their privilegue of electing their OHO.

In the XIth degree, the mostly homosexual degree, (40*) one identifies oneself with an ejaculating penis. (41*) The blood (or excrements) from anal intercourse attract the spirits/demons while the sperm keeps them alive. On 31 March 1946 Crowley noted down a dream in his diary: "A most frightful semi-dream (between two normal motions) of giving birth to a foetus per anum. It was a mass of blood & slime. The nastiest Qliphotic experience I can remember!"

Crowley saw no use in the vaginal fluids nor did he think that women are divine, (42*) therefore he could not imagine lesbian sexmagick. He believed that "man is the guardian of the Life of God; woman but a temporary expedient; a shrine indeed for the God, but not the God." ==> Women exist for the use of men. His ideal female: "robust, vigorous, eager, sensible, hot and healthy". That is to say, his interest was in the woman's body and he wanted no spiritual or intellectual participation from her.
Crowley's main tools to achieve illumination remained: spermophagy, coprophagy and algolagnia.

Coprophagy vs Poetry?

Crowley's interest in women was reduced:

Diary entry of 26 July 1920. Crowley boasts to his Swiss Scarlet Whore Leah Hirsig while on cocaine that he is such a powerful priest and magician that he could transform excrements into his Eucharist Host. She calls his bluff (which, later in the entry he admits it was -- "I'm a Coward, and Liar. Leah-Alostrael -- my Scarlet Woman -- knew it.") So she tells him to go ahead and prove it by eating her shit. He finds himself unable to do so. She taunts him saying that he is no priest if he can't live up to his boast. So he complies. He complains "my mouth burned; my throat choked; my belly retched; my blood fled whither who knows, and my skin sweated.... My teeth grew rotten, my tongue ulcered; raw was my throat, spasm-torn my belly ..."
Read his 'Leah Sublime':
    "Sprawl on me! Sit On my mouth, Leah, shit! Shit on me, slut Creamy the curds That drip from your gut! Greasy the turds! Dribble your dung On the tip of my tongue!"
This small extract does not give the full extent of Crowley's enjoyment with Coprophagy. Crowley also notes that Leah Hirsig enjoyed this kink as well ("worn whore that has chewed your own pile of manure" and "splutter out shit [...] turn to me, chew it with me, Leah").
There is also a urine fetish and a fetish with getting venereal diseases -- that is, Crowley expresses a kink for disease, even including what seems to be Hirsig's bad oral hygiene or gingivitis, stating that her breath stinks and that he wants her to spit on him.

(Notes on obscure medical terms: "Gleet" is another name for gonorrhea. "Pox" -- here short for "the French pox" -- does not refer to viral pox diseases like smallpox or chicken pox, but is an old euphemism for any sexually transmitted disease. "Cheeses" refers to venereal yeast infection or to Trichomonas infection, or both. "The itch" -- also called "Cupid's Itch" in times past -- may refer variously to a venereal yeast infection, Trichomonas infection, ringworm of the pubes, or any more serious sexually transmitted disease.)

SUMMARY OF CROWLEY’S SEX MAGICK SYSTEM

  • VII° Adoration of the phallus as Baphomet, both within and without
  • VIII° Interaction with something outside the closed vessels of the vagina and the anus
  • IX° Interaction inside the vagina with either the blood or the secretions of a woman when excited
  • X° Impregnation + fertilisation of an egg + the act of creation or succession (e.g. election of the OHO)
  • XI° Two-folded: i) Isolation in the anus where it is considered unable to interact with anything at all ii) interaction with excrements (one of Crowley’s preferred ingredients) and small amounts of blood (when small wounds occur through the intercourse), mucus and of course the mucous membranes that lead directly into the blood supply, etc., etc.

        Questions and Answers regarding the O.T.O.: Theodor Reuss, Rudolf Steiner, sexmagick and Aleister Crowley
        Zur Geschichte des O.T.O. Fragen und Antworten zu Theodor Reuss, Rudolf Steiner und Aleister Crowley


Stranded Bishops

Halfway considering the duties of the Manichaean Elect (to concentrate the Light, the sparkling leftover when the Logos spermatikos left man, imprisoned in matter, by consuming such foods) Crowley neglected the ascetic aspect of Manicheism (who avoided activities which would tend to disperse that Light) but concentrated upon building up a brilliant Body of Light fitted for return to the Blessed Realm. (37*)
For his Holy Host Crowley gave a recipe using blood and sperm. (38*) In order to avoid a HIV-infection the current American O.T.O. (the 1977- founded "Caliphate") advises to bake the host at 160 degree Fahrenheit in the oven. (39*)
The IXth becomes a parody of the Christian Eucharist with further refinements of the techniques related to the consumption of the Elixir/Host. Absorption occurs through the mucous membrane of the roof of the mouth, rather than swallowing it because the delicate protein fabric enveloping the essence will get broken down by the acids of the digestive system before it has had a chance to integrate into the mind-body symbiosis. In the case of the mouth there is the digestive activity of the saliva. This must also affect the "delicate protein fabric enveloping the essence" to some degree, the longer it is kept in the mouth.
In 1983 this new O.T.O. group decided "that at the 9* level there are no politics. It is an autocratic structure. The qualifications of the 9* are only significant to the 9*. Their qualifications are only of interest to other 9*." [Minutes of the 28 March 1983 meeting]

The "Caliphate"-"Gnostic Church" also parodies the Roman Catholic traditions in introducing offices like "Patriarch", "Archbishop", "Bishop", (Novitiate) "Priest"/"Priestess" and "Deacon" (Priest and Deacon already appear in Reuss/Crowley's Gnostic Mass of the 1910s) (21*). Nowadays, they offer services like: Baptism Ceremony for a Child, Baptism Ceremony for an Adult, Confirmation Ceremony, Ceremony for Ordination of a Deacon, A Wedding Ceremony, A Ceremony for a Greater Feast for Death, A Basic Exorcism Rite (there seems to be a growing emphasis on exorcism), A Ceremony for Visitation and Administration of the Virtues to the Sick; they have a Saintship (no woman appears on this list) and Animal Benefictions [once at http://www.scarletwoman.org/soter/beastb.htm].(43*) 

Christian prayers are attached also to the "Caliphate"-V*-ritual: "The Litany of the Holy Name of Jesus""The Litany of St. Joseph" and "The Litany of the Blessed Virgin Mary". This is to be taken as reference to the Aeonic Magus of the LAST Aeon, as a reminder that these Great Cycles build each upon the others ... also that the True Master was not at all the political hatchet job made of Him by Paulism. These prayers (that is, the initiation rituals) are accompanied by music of Mozart, Holst, Strauss, Mahler and the like. (44*)
Obviously unaware of the traditional meaning of the expression "Wandering Bishops", some of their "bishops" call themselves "Landed Bishops".

The Ordo Templi Orientis Phenomenon


Clotted Chakras

The Ordo Templi Orientis was, and still is, a secret part of the ethnological underground of civilisation that seeks acceptance through the mainstream culture. At the bottom of that dark well, lies only a mouthful of sperm. Because this fact is too simplistic, and maybe to shameful; it is wrapped into many "word shells"/euphemisms. While the ancient Gnostics headed directly towards the religious technicalities of dealing with sperm (avoiding ejaculation or consuming the sexual fluids); the modern Gnostics promote innumerable traditional ways, in Eastern and Western traditions, of salvation outside spermo-Gnosticism; (45*) only to hide the sperm in the inner sanctuary of their organisazion. (46*) Also the crack in the universe is attempted to be healed with sacrifices, liturgies, chants, and consecrations. But the mystery has gone astray: there is too much materialism in the O.T.O.-groups; and this tears the seeker down to earth, and hinders him from becoming one with the Divine. After many years of paying membership fees; and after having bought their beloved leaders' books; and even after they already know the "secret": one day an O.T.O.-member may discover by accident or suffering experience, that the order's scheme of salvation has not brought Gnosis. Because the pseudo-masonical Ordo Templi Orientis has such a complex grade structure, (47*) taking many years to complete and to pay for, and blends the simple Gnostic doctrines of technical psychology with all the other religious tools and with the biography of their charismatic leaders; the organisazion itself becomes an intensely "rotten place". Unfraternal behaviour between members, inflated egos, (48*) lying, game-playing, subterfuges and hysteria; cause endless splits, in-fights and even court proceedings. All this compounded together can make the O.T.O. an almost unbearable place. 

Aleister Crowley's O.T.O.-groups are filled up with his concept of Thelema: a new scheme to sort out History, Religion, Philosophy, Magick and everyday life. (49*) A lot of Crowley-O.T.O.-members do not feel that sperm only transports the Holy Logos. (50*) This originally is considered a misunderstanding of the process of procreation. With the advance of Science, they assume that both the male and the female are both equally responsible for procreation. Nevertheless they follow the qabalistic sense of the male seed as the Logos to a certain extent: the woman functions as the "giver of form." (51*) Gnostic doctrines are modified in Thelema as the doctrine of True Will: that every man and woman has a "reason" to be here: that they have "chosen" to descend into this rotten place, that they have a mission to accomplish, which they have forgotten. It is their task not simply to escape, but also to remember why they came, and to fulfill this function. (52*) Nevertheless, Thelema itself seems to radiate decay. (53*)




Several years after this essay has been published, David Scriven, Grandmaster of the 'Caliphate' in the US writes: "Before the processes of mitosis and meiosis were fully understood, there was a great deal of speculation and contention about which sex was responsible for carrying the true Essence of Life, and the various hypotheses proposed were influenced by religious, cultural, and even political concerns. The thinking on these matters from ancient times through the Renaissance (in Europe) fell generally into two major camps. One held that it was the male who carried the True Essence, the Seed of Life, and who "planted" this seed in the fertile soil of the womb of the female, where it was nourished and protected as it developed, on its own, into new Life. For these phallicists, only men possessed this Divine Spark of Life, and women did not. The ovists, for lack of a better term, held the opposite; that it was women who possessed the Seed of Life within their bodies, and that the function of men in the reproductive process was one of enabling or fertilization; of "watering the soil" so that the seed that resided therein might sprout and grow. During the 17 th and 18 th centuries, these primitive doctrines were refined into a scientific school of thought called preformationism, which held that living beings were essentially fully-formed prior to conception. This school of thought was divided into the two classical factions, the spermists and the ovists. The doctrine of spermist preformation is exemplified by the famous Homunculus image, drawn by Nicholas Hartsoecker in 1694, and supposedly based on an observation of Anton van Leeuwenhoek. The image shows a spermatozoon containing, within its head, a tiny, but fully-formed, human being, and the implication is that the sperm contains the complete, preformed essence of the unborn person; whereas the egg is merely an inert, nutritive, sheltering matrix. Crowley reproduced Hartsoecker's Homunculus on the Hermit Trump of the Thoth Tarot Deck. [page 2, snip] As advocates of Crowley's concept of scientific religion, we need to be prepared to discard scientific doctrines when they are rendered obsolete, even when such doctrines support our spiritual and social paradigms. We may continue to enjoy and revere our holy books, our historical writings, and our customary rites, because these things have historical, symbolic, spiritual, and even talismanic value to us. But we must not allow ourselves to be bound to interpretations, explanations, and applications of our symbols that are based on outmoded and discredited ideas about nature. The true significance of our great and living symbols extends much deeper than such shallow and transient notions. As I have said before, a true symbol is not merely a cipher. If we actively listen to them, our symbols will continue to speak to us the truth, to the extent that we have the capacity to comprehend it." Agape, IV;1, California 1 May 2002Although all the splintered O.T.O.-groups as a whole also are "rotten places", where the seeker can easily enter into the Pleroma; Gnosis does not happen there, (54*) because these "rotten places" have changed from Gnostic places into psychological projection screens, where the seeker throws his image of his Holy Father upon, i.e. Crowley. The sexual revolution of lust and Gnosis has deformed and degenerated into psychological ruptures. Gnosis has become Dia-gnose which neither brings homeopathic (sensual) nor allopathic (ascetic) salvation. Vice versa on a lower plane: only ascetic seekers who practise homeopathy (outside the O.T.O.) and libertine quasi-Gnostics who practise allopathy.

Sperm as homeopathic medicine?

The Gnostic and the homeopath try to bring man back to the divine order in/of the universe. The Gnostic seeks immediate presence of the Divine while the homeopath seeks the most balanced order of the individual with the divine universe. Hippocrates said that illness comes from the Gods; that is, from above; and that the earthly world can be regarded as wounded God. Well, some Gnostics now see the sperm as universal medicine to heal everything. Because of this fact, and also because during my researches on the O.T.O.-Phenomena, I have met several ascetic spermo- Gnostics who practised homeopathy, I will now try to discuss the homoepathic aspect of sperm-eating.

It is my opinion, that, even when one sees sperm as the vehicle of the Logos, it could not be used as a homeopathic remedy, because the similarity of the homeopathic remedy to the similarity of an ill patient is based on the total and individual completeness of symptoms and on the peculiarity of a superior illness/disorder. Logos as a homeopathic remedy would, by homeopathic definition, possibly dissolve Logos. In order that sperm could act as a remedy, it must first become a remedy, which it is not as a substance. It should primarily be treated in a homeopathic way so that it takes on a different nature on a higher level where it might take effects on the patient's superior disorder/illness. This homeopathic way is called potenciation. The substance itself is going to be thinned out far over the point where scientists might find any molecules of the substance, and at the same time, the product is going to be hit or shaken. As yet, no homeopath has found a scientific explanation for this, but homeopathic-medical experience showed, that this action transforms a material substance into an energetic, that is, "healing" state, which reminds somewhat of the Christian concept of transubstantiation. But what is the Gnostic use of such, since, in Gnostic belief, the substance itself contains the Logos already? And what about all the human energetic aspects, e.g. predispositional illnesses like syphilis or HIV? What is caused by a potencialised HI-virus? This is a question which is not answered by the homeopathic scientists themselves.
Nevertheless I have met homeopaths who would use sperm as they use other human substances; for example urine or blood or pathogenic agencies. But sperm as homeopathic medicine should not be regarded as an in-bringing of the Logos. The use of homepathic sperm should depend on the total and individual completeness of symptoms that sperm (be it potencialised or not) would cause in a "healthy" individual. These side-effects could then be used to dissolve similar symptoms of an "ill" patient.
The question arises as to the practise by some O.T.O.-members who bake a host consisting of sperm and vaginal fluids in order to destroy the HI-virus. What effect does heat have on the Gnostic Logos? The gnostic/christian Thomas reported Jesus having said that who is near me is near the fire ...
Others put their sperm into a mouthful of brandy to make it more tasty. Spiritus Sanctus?
What about all those women who are forced by their men to swallow his sperm. (55*) Should these suppressed women not be more free than their suppressors? Can these women really not be saved? Or must they become O.T.O. members in order to experience salvation through sperm?

How is it seen by a woman?: Linda Falorio (not an O.T.O. member) from the Anandazone!

"A complicated question as to the "meaning" of HIV. From my human view, I can't see any benefit that these invaders might bestow, either on the individual, or on the Work. I feel they should be "banished" as one would do with any entity attempting possession, which is what these retroviruses do, as I understand it, take over one's cells for their own purposes, ... or they should at least contained within the triangle (i.e. condom). Of course, then the benefit of psychosexual fluids cannot be directly obtained on the physical, but must remain on the subtle planes. A powerful magician should be able to do this, I would think, but would need a similarly endowed person to perceive what had been distilled.
But of course, similar questions of relative benefit are in my mind as they apply to men who have had vasectomies, & women who have had hysterectomies, or are past menopause
 (56*) ... Then it seems one needs a well-qualified priest/priestess who may not be oneself, or one's preferred partner, to distill the elixir on the physical. But then, mightn't a powerful person be able to cause their own body to distill these endocrines, even though the glands might be removed?" September 1996

Linda Falorio is a very inspiring factor in the so-called Typhonian O.T.O.. The Typhonian O.T.O. is concerned with effective transmissions and communications from 'outerspace' for the purpose of opening Gateways. The Typhonian 'deities' denote specific operations of psycho-physical alchemy which involve essences or elixirs secreted (thrown out and/or considered unclean) by the human organism. Its formula is that of the XI°involving kalas that are entirely absent from the masculine organism. This O.T.O. version concerns itself with gathering the secretions from the vagina, urine and excrements: material from which allegedly the Elixir of Life was extracted and refined by mediaeval alchemists. Emphasis is laid on the healthy human female. (57*)

The 'Caliphate' on the other hand, recently started considering that [www.maroney.org/Essays/Facts_and_Phallacies.htm defunct now] Crowley was a sexist.

Obviously the crack in the universe is still open. Christians like other religions await a kind of apocalypse or place of salvation beyond this world, beyond the open gap between earth and heaven, for which ascetic and libertine Gnostics try to build a bridge.

You have not heard the last of the spermo-Gnostics.

© P.R. Koenig, March 2000 



ANNOTATIONS:
  1. A choice of some Gnostic sources: "Leohnard Fendt: "Gnostische Mysterien", ARW, Muenchen 1922/1980; Peter Sloterdijk: "Weltrevolution der Seele", I, Artemis, Muenchen 1991; J.P. Asmusen/A. Boehlig: "Die Gnosis", III, Artemis, Zuerich/Muenchen 1980; Robert Haardt: "Die Gnosis", Salzburg 1967; E. Haenchen/M. Kraus: "Die Gnosis", Artemis, Zuerich/Muenchen 1969; Wilhelm Bousset: "Hauptprobleme der Gnosis", Vandenhoeck + Ruprecht, Goettingen 1907; Kurt Rudolph: "Die Gnosis", Vandenhoeck + Ruprecht, Goettingen 1980; Hans Jonas: "Gnosis und Spaetantiker Geist", Vandenhoeck + Ruprecht, Stuttgart 1934; Johann Maier: "Vom Kultus zur Gnosis", Otto Mueller Verlag, Salzburg 1964; Elaine Pagels: "The Gnostic Gospels", Random House, New York 1979; Wolfang Schultz: "Dokumente der Gnosis", Matthes + Seitz, Muenchen 1986; Hans Leisegang: "Die Gnosis", Kroener, Stuttgart 1985; and many more
  2. Also R.L. Hubbard called his Scientology "gnosticism", in: "False Purpose Rundown", 5th June 1984
  3. Peter Sloterdijk: "Weltrevolution der Seele" I, Artemis, Muenchen 1991, 19
  4. Sources on Homeopathy: Georgos Vithoulkas: "Die wissenschaftliche Homoeopathie," Goettingen 1986; Marco Righetti: "Forschung in der Homoeopathie," Burgdorf-Verlag, Burgdorf 1988; J.T. Kent: "Zur Theorie der Homoeopathie, J.T. Kents Vorlesungen ueber Hahnemanns Organon", Leer 1954
  5. For example in: Robert Haardt: "Die Gnosis", Salzburg 1967, 66
  6. Ernst T. Kurtzahn (member of Theodor Reuss' OTO), in: "Die Gnostiker", Baumann-Verlag, Schmiedeberg 1925, 77-82
  7. Arnoldo Krumm-Heller (member of Reuss' OTO): "Plantas Sagradas", Buenos Aires 1931, 72
  8. Arnoldo Krumm-Heller: "Iglesia Gnostica", Berlin 1931, 71
  9. Samael Aun Weor (member of Krumm-Heller's group): "Buddha's Necklace" without date and place, 1-95
  10. Gospel according to Thomas: "unless a man became a women, and a woman, man, thou canst not enter the Kingdom of Heaven". Thus, not all Gnostics are Misogynists, though the era when Gnosticism was founded was totally Misogynist
  11. Ernst T. Kurtzahn (member of Theodor Reuss' OTO), in: "Die Gnostiker", Baumann-Verlag, Schmiedeberg 1925, 77-82
  12. Example in: Kurt Rudolph: "Die Gnosis", Leipzig 1980 (2)
  13. All pseudo-masonical rituals of Reuss' and Crowley's OTO are published in: P.R. Koenig: "How to make your own McOTO", ARW, Muenchen 1996; Crowley's rituals also in: Francis King: "The Secret Rituals of the O.T.O.", London 1973
  14. Crowley: "A man who is strong enough to use women as slaves and plaything is all right", "Woman is a creature of habit, that is, of solified impulses. She has no individuality", "Monogamy is only a mistake because it leaves the excess women unsatisfied", "A woman is only tolerable in one's life if she is trained to help the man in his work without the slightest reference to any other interests soever": "Confessions", edited by John Symonds/Kenneth Grant
  15. A try is: Ellic Howe/Helmut Moeller: "Merlin Peregrinus", Koenigshausen + Neumann, Wuerzburg 1986; details also in P.R.Koenig: "Der Kleine Theodor Reuss Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1993; P.R.Koenig:"Das OTO-Phaenomen", ARW, Muenchen 1994; P.R. Koenig: "Der Grosse Theodor Reuss Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1997
  16. John Symonds: "The King of the Shadow Realm", London 1989
  17. A historical outline of those practices, in: Heinz Hunger: "Die Heilige Hochzeit", Wiesbaden 1984
  18. P.B. Randolph: "Magia Sexualis", Paris 1931/69; Elias McGregor (ed. Roberth North, 1988): "Magia Sexualis by P.B. Randolph"; Gordon J. Melton: "P.B. Randolph - America's Pioneer Occultist", Lyon 1992; Joscelyn Godwin: serial of articles in "Theosophical History" volume 2- 3, Fullerton 1988-1991; also David Board in: "Theosophical History" Volume 3, number 3, Fullerton 1990; and a letter from Joscelyn Godwin, dated 13 October 1994, reprinted in: P.R. Koenig: "Ein Leben fuer die Rose", ARW, Muenchen 1995
  19. Sources: Reuss' magazine "Oriflamme", Bad Schmiedeberg 1902-1914; several internal manuscripts; and the Austrian researcher Josef Dvorak
  20. Manicheism considers the material world as "evil"; "angels" copulate with the "archonts" in order to free the "evil bonds", in: J.P. Asmussen/A. Boehlig: "Die Gnosis" 3, Artemis, Zuerich/Muenchen 1980. Archonts are the guardians of the universe and are often viewed as maleficient forces. One of the archonts is the demiurge or the creator of the world. The recurring image of Archonts is that of jailers imprisoning the divine spark in human souls held captive in material creation.
  21. Theodor Reuss in his translation of Crowley's Gnostic Mass: "Die Gnostische Messe, Aus dem Original-Text des Baphomet, uebertragen in die deutsche Sprache von Merlin Peregrinus", Bad Schmiedeberg 1917; Facsimile in: P.R. Koenig: "Der Grosse Theodor Reuss Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1997
  22. Reuss: "Mysterica Mystica Maxima", in: "Jubilaeums-Ausgabe der Oriflamme 1912", Baumann, Berlin und London 1912, 23
  23. Reuss: "Parsifal und das Enthuellte Grals-Geheimnis", Bad Schmiedeberg 1920; the annotated manuscript dated 1914 is transcribed in: P.R. Koenig: "Der Kleine Theodor Reuss Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1993
  24. Le Chevalier Le Clement de St-Marq: "L'Eucharistie", Bilsen 1906; fascimile re-printed in: P.R. Koenig: "Der Grosse Theodor Reuss Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1997; Reuss called this pamphlet a revealing of the central secret of the OTO: only sperm contains the Logos: no women needed. Reuss wrote to Le Clément the following meaningful lines (we carefully reproduce his jargon): "I enclose two numbers of the "Oriflamme" which will show you that the Order of the Oriental Templars is in possesion of that same knowledge contained in your "L'Eucharistie"". In effect, we find in the "Oriflamme", published in 1912, this, which clears the matter: "Our Order is in possesion of the key which opens all the masonic and hermetic secrets: it is the doctrine of sexual magicc, and this doctrine explains, leaving nothing in the dark, all masonic symbolism, every religious system". The quote is in chapter X (La question du satanisme) of René Guénon's "L'Erreur Spirite", originally published 1923
  25. Wiener Freimaurerzeitung 9/10, Wien 1926, page 28; facsimile re- printed in: P.R. Koenig: "Der Grosse Theodor Reuss Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1997
  26. Reuss: "Aufbauprogramm und Leitsaetze der Gnostischen Neo-Christen O.T.O.", Bad Schmiedeberg 1920; re-printed in: P.R. Koenig: "Der Kleine Theodor Reuss Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1993
  27. The newly founded American OTO, called "Caliphate", allegedly "does not practice medicine", in: "Thelema Lodge Newsletter", Berkely, September 1993
  28. Crowley: "the industrial use of Semen will revolutionize human society", diary entry 8 August 1923
  29. Aleister Crowley: "Amrita", King Beach 1990; see also: Gerald Yorke: "'Sex' und der O.T.O.", in: "AHA" 6, Bergen an der Dumme, 1991
  30. "Pleasure as such has never attracted me. It must be spiced by moral satisfaction", Aleister Crowley: "Confessions"
  31. Self-idolation: "thanks to Aiwaz, our Lord God the Devil", "I sing for God, our Lord, Aiwaz", diary entries 22nd and 28th July 1920
  32. Those secret instructions are published by Francis King: "The Secret Rituals of the O.T.O.", London 1973
  33. Published in: "Mezla" I.111,1, Ithaca/NY 1985; on-line by William Breeze (current "Caliph" of the "Caliphate" and self-styled "Patriarch" of the pertinent "Gnostic Catholic Church") on BaphoNet-by-the-Sea: 718/499-9277, June 1992; Gregory von Seewald: flyer version in the early 1990s; translated and annotated in: P.R. Koenig: "Der OTOA- Reader", ARW, Muenchen 1994
  34. "How does one make the Elixir of Life?", "What are the uses of the Elixir of Life?", allegedly proposed by Phyllis Seckler, but allegedly not in use (as communicated by a low degree member of the "Caliphate", in July 1997)
  35. Discussion in: P.R. Koenig: "Ein Leben fuer die Rose", ARW, Muenchen 1995
  36. Facsimile of this handwritten instruction by Crowley in: P.R. Koenig: "How to make your own McOTO", ARW, Muenchen 1996
  37. Thelema uses new word shells for already existing concepts: The gnostic Pleroma in Thelema is called "Nuit" wherein/whereto the sperm returns alias "Hadit". Nevertheless, William Breeze (current "Caliph"):In Thelemic cosmogony there is no pleroma as in Gnosticism. This place, Kether in the Tree of Life, is occupied by Ra Hoor Khuit..., and our own silent selves, our Jechidah in Qabalistic terms, our Guardian Angels," "The Magical Link", new series 1, Fall (December!), Stockholm 1997, 9. So again: where's the "Gnosticism" in Thelema?
  38. Nothing new: already described in: Carl Schmidt: "Griechisch- christliche Schriftsteller der ersten 3 Jahrhunderte", volume 1 (containing the first translation of the "Pistis Sophia"), Leipzig 1905; also described by Epiphanius, in: "Panarion", in: Robert Haardt: "Die Gnosis", Salzburg 1967; E. Hanechen/M. Krause: "Die Gnosis" 1, Artemis, Zuerich/Muenchen 1969. Crowley also had a version of his own:"In my Mass the Host is of excrement", diary entry 5 July 1920
  39. "Magical Link" I;5, New York 1987; "Thelema Lodge Newsletter", Berkeley, January 1991. Supreme Grand Council meeting, April 3, 1993: "Cakes of Light should be prepared only according to the formula previously published; but ashes from burned cakes of light prepared according to AL III;23 would be acceptable as an additional ingredient"
  40. Crowley: "I am inclined to believe that the XIth degree is better than the IXth degree", diary entry 26 August 1916
  41. Crowley also imagined men as "Scarlet Whores" while masturbating (diary, 16 November 1914) ("Scarlet Woman ... is any Woman that receives and transmits my Solar Word and Being", in Crowley: "Magical and Philosophical Commentaries", edited by John Symonds/Kenneth Grant, Montreal 1974, 307)
  42. Crowley: "Liber Agape" (in: P.R. Koenig: "How to make your own McOTO", ARW, Muenchen 1996), and Crowley: "De arte Magica"
  43. "Those rituals seem a parody of Christianity and Catholicism. Of course, the Benediction of Animals is to be expected in a country where pet psychiatrists can make more than an engineer. What if the animal really did have some religious ideas? Would non-Thelemic (as if there could be an orthodox Thelema) animals then be: a Pagan Pussy, a Heretic Hamster, Demonic Dog? Do these people have so much time on their hands that they must now impose their religious views on their pets?!?
    The confirmation and baptism ceremonies could too easily attract worshippers. These are hardly going to be productive members of a Thelemic order. Such people will spend much time proclaiming how they had some level of spiritual awareness bestowed upon them through such a ceremony. Perhaps it is useful to have such rituals to keep the masses happy, but I do not think that they contribute to the work at hand (Great Work, "Knowledge & Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel", whatever)."
     Stephen L***, 2 July 1998
  44. "III-1 O.T.O. Man of Earth Rituals Rev. 4.2B, Fall IIIxxx", by Fr. H.K. Kapellmeister, OTO, New York 1990, 1
  45. A key point in Crowley's collection of keywords seems to be that there is no need for salvation, at first sight. Deus Est Homo. God Is Man, quem creavit Elohim. This seems to be a gnostic expansion of the Psyche: those who are adoring become those who are adored
  46. Reuss and other OTO-leaders, also William Breeze, head of the "Caliphate", consider only members from the VIIth degree upwards as "real OTO members". The VIIth degree is the border to sexmagick/spermo-gnosis. Order schematism in: P.R. Koenig: "Materialien zum OTO", ARW, Muenchen 1994, 22-23
  47. There are OTO-groups without any masonic structure
  48. For example, William Breeze, head of the "Caliphate" and self-proclaimed OHO (alleged world wide leader of the "true" OTO), has adopted the Xth-title "His Sacred Majesty"
  49. "It means shifting the Centre of Gravity of the Human Race!", diary entry 6 August 1923
  50. Although the gnostic Pleroma is called "Nuit" wherein/whereto the sperm returns as "Hadit"
  51. Polarity of Chokmah (the illuminating intelligence) and Binah (the sanctifying intelligence)
  52. Correspondence between the author and David Scriven, the representative of the chief of the "Caliphate" for the US, dated November 1996
  53. Crowley: "I am the Beast ... I am Thelema", (diary entry 22 October 1920), "I need a rotten stage of things to work on", (diary entry 1 June 1920)
  54. The "Caliphate", for instance, can be looked at as a bureaucratic firm which tries to maintain the copyrights of Aleister Crowley; or a mundane "club" without spirituality as it is described by one of its ex-leading member. A still leading member admits that True Gnosis cannot bestowed or conferred on a person by any person or organization (David Scriven, November 1996), see also the German foreword in my "Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica" (Muenchen 1998)
  55. I do NOT speak about OTO-members here, but generally about abused women
  56. The alleged "Caliphate"-examination paper for the IXth degree (see footnote 34) focus on the "physical condition" for sexmagick, which arises the question as to disabled persons as members of sexmagical organisations
  57. Kenneth Grant: "Beyond the Mauve Zone", London 1999


This is an outline from the German 
"Das OTO-Phaenomen" (1994) and the English "O.T.O. Rituals and Sexmagick" (1999)
tradução portuguesa: 
Os Espermo-Gnósticos e a Ordo Templi Orientis
deutsche Version: 
Sperma-Gnostiker und der O.T.O.
versione italiana: 
Origine dei gruppi O.T.O. e la Magia sessuale
traduccion castellano: 
Ordo Templi Orientis: Espermo-Gnósticos
ceská verze: 
Asketictí a Libertinstí Gnostikové
Traduse in romana : 
Spermo-Gnoza



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